Hmph

Seeing that all my efforts (?) at getting back to writing regularly have failed once again, this is another consolation post. I do have something to write about for a change but it probably isn't the right time to write it down as it might be mistaken for something else by certain people because of the current circumstances. For once I wish people could not read my blog. It would really help me to write it all down, takes the burden off me somewhat, helps me to see things more clearly and to think straight. That is something I desperately need to do, think straight. My head is just full of so much stuff that it feels like it's going to explode any second (actually sometimes I wish it did) and sometimes it's like it's so blank and light and I'm so happy that I wish I could never think again. I must have mentioned how thinking too much is bad for your health to a lot of people and I'm pretty sure I have written about it too. The thing is it's always easier said than done, because I keep telling myself that there's no point thinking about it because it'll just make matters worse, but the mind has a mind of it's own. You can only tell it to do so much. If it wants to wander off into unfriendly territory, it will. If it can make your life a living hell, it most definitely will. No matter what you do or how hard you try, it will not let you forget what you want to forget and will make you remember what you don't want to remember. The damned thing is supposed to help you out rather than make you want to kill yourself.

And I feel so sleepy all of a sudden. Good night.